Words

I hope to keep this one short and sweet...if that's even possible with my writing haha

Last week I was hanging out for an evening with some great friends. We got to do a bunch of stuff together and it was super fun. Midnight rolled around faster than expected and everyone was getting tired. My best friend was there and she was going to leave around this time.

I realize that at this point this is incredible boring hah!...try to stick it out a tad bit longer, I feel my writing isn't the best today, I'm at a lack for good words.

Anyways, as always she gave me a quick hug and said goodbye but what surprised me was when she stepped back and stood there looking at me instead of actually leaving. Then she ran up flung her arms around me and said "You're an amazing friend."

(Now, she doesn't know that I'm writing this about her, and she probably won't for a long time.)

The thing that is most important about what she did is that it was something totally unexpected, and something that really made me smile. I believe that as hard as it can be sometimes we should all do this more often.

I'm not quite sure why, but we tend to hold back our thoughts and words that stir up in our heads and hearts and we let the moment pass without ever saying or doing anything. But we should always say these things even if we are afraid of what someone will think, or say, or if we'll screw up and be completely embarrassed.

Because I find that those are the things that we cherish forever. You never know how long something you say to someone or something you do for them will stay with them in their hearts. And how every time they think of it they light up with happiness.

So I challenge you, along with myself, to go be a spark of joy for someone, because even the simplest thing could be one that they hold onto forever in memory. 

Love,
   Forever & Always,
   Marina

And so it is...

I have always been a different kind of girl. I think differently, feel differently about things, and act differently than most people. And I'm okay with that. I love how my heart is able to speak through my mouth and impact people for the better. I love how when something is going on that is inappropriate or something I don't believe in seeing or doing, I have the character and the confidence to exclude myself. I don't have to force a smile or fake a good time, while I swallow hard to choke down my conscience. I try my best to express how I feel to people even when there doesn't seem to be the right words. And I stumble through, walking away with my foot in my mouth, and replay it over in my head again and again. But it doesn't scare me. I fight for what's right, always...not just when it's beneficial for my well being. In fact fighting for what is right in this world often means putting your self interest out there for ridicule. But I don't care. So I'm different...weird....a "freak".

And in life some people will say that when you know who you are and you fight for what you beleive in, that you're a bitch. Even if they know deep down in their hearts how you really are; and maybe they actually admire you for that, maybe they are even jelous about it. But sometimes they will choke down their conscience and and close their ears to the words their hearts are speaking to them, and they will utter the most despicable synonym they can find for the word strong.

I say so be it. Because you have to be true to your heart. And you don't have to apologize for who you are. And if you stick it out long enough, you will find that not everyone in life is like that...and you will form amazing relationships and friendships that last a lifetime.

Love,
Forever and Always,
       ~Marina

True Love

With Valentine's Day approaching I have been thinking about love.

It is well known that there are no single two people in the world that are exactly the same. But love has a way of bringing together people that are meant to be together in life.

Many people wonder what do I do if I meet someone that I love but yet we have different views about many things. This happens alot because as much as we try to force ourselves not to believe that opposites attract, they do. The important things is what you must agree on for any relationship to work. Like religious beliefs, how to handle money, these sorts of things.

Heres the part that I always find amazing when I hear people tell their love stories about their lives. Often times, if it's a true love, all the other things fall in to place. People are worried about this or that detail, but when it's true love, each person sacrifices something and they inevitably find a way to make it work.

I am a Christian, and it never ceases to amaze me how the ultimate love sacrifice was made so that we can live eternally. That Jesus Christ died on a cross so that we may have eternal life, and there was nothing that we had to sacrifice or do for him. He did it out of true love for every person that walks the face of this earth, without a second thought.

That was the ultimate act of true love.

John 13:34-35 "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another."

Hollywood

The other day I went down to Hollywood to check out Amoeba Music. That place is enormous, it was my first time being there. Very cool store with lots of choices in music and amazing posters.

But what really made me think was the ride back as I thought about everything that I had seen when I was there for only a short time.

I think I have a love hate relationship with Hollywood because everytime I go there it leaves me with a feeling that I can't explain. A part of me always feels excited when I'm there. It leaves me with a hope that I can be someone. Almost like I can do anything I want, and a hope that I can get far with music, which I love so much. I have a strange fascination with it because there are so many kinds of people there that are all intermixed. People of different race, style; I saw a man with a six inch mohawk in fact, it was colored black and a red orange color. That's cool to me. That when you're down there, you can be anyone you want to be and nobody thinks strangely of you for it.

But the flip side to that is that it always leaves me with a somewhat sad feeling as well. On the way out, there was a homeless man walking in circles, and a man talking to himself. There is so much poverty there that can be seen around every corner, and no way to really help any of them. You see alot of misleading things, and realize that there are many spiritually lost people.

So I am always puzzled as I drive out of Hollywood and head back home on the crowded freeways as I think about how interesting and exciting and yet at the same time how sad it is.

That feeling gets me everytime...I suppose it's just one of those things in life; Everything in life has a sour and a sweet...I guess that's what makes the world go round.

Isn't it strange?

Do the things you do everyday seem the same? Or does it ever strike you as odd sometimes?

Everyday we wake up and have some sort of plan for our day of things we know we have to do and want to do and how to accomplish that.

For instance, when we are driving down the road. Most everybody does it everyday several times...doesn't it ever strike you oddly that every person in every other car on that road is coming from somewhere and going to somewhere? And that each person has a story that they carry with them. A story of their life, and good events, and bad events. And people they know. They could be people you know, or they could be people you don't know...that's something you may never be able to tell.

And isn't it strange to think that we are living in this bubble we call Earth, that has a sky and an atmosphere that keeps everything contained within itself. And we have created giant metal tubes persay, with wings and fuel and we fly tons of people around everyday to and from countries around the planet.

And sometimes, it seems really wierd that we have animals, living, in our houses with us. And we baby them and talk to them, and treat them like other people. But they are animals, almost like anything else from the wild.

I'm pretty sure that I think wayyy too much BUT you should really think about it sometime, and tell me what you think...isn't it strange?

Silly Foolishness

Is it foolish to think that someday I'll find a man right for me? A man who loves God, and man that has some country, some cowboy in him, a man with a kind heart? Personality? A man with a sense of humor, fun to be with? I know some people who seem to have already found their perfect somebody and others who are beaten down and worn out looking because it always seems to fail. It seems so strange because we have only just begun our lives at the ages of 18, 19, 20 even. Is finding your true love just fate, like the fairytales all say? I'm sure it must have something to do with who you are and where you are going. And yet still some friends seem to settle for anybody just to be able to let the words 'I have a boyfriend' slip from their lips. Is it foolish to feel discouraged sometimes. To feel it may be forever before you're there with the person who you are supposed to be with. Or maybe it's foolish to believe that instead of settling for anyone and trying to pretend, that soon you'll find them in the most unexpected place and the most unexpected moment, who knows...And certainly it's foolishness to imagine yourself with that someone running through the rain in an open field, throwing soap when washing cars, taking a thousand and one photogrpahs of eachother. It must be foolish to image that someday you'll be with someone who you can talk to about anything, not exactly the same as a best friend, but more. It couldn't be the same for women always have a woman best friend. But they would be your best friend. Is it foolish to think, you would like to go into something without the intention of getting divorced an remarried a hundred times, and actually spending the rest of your life with that person. Is it foolish to think that one day it will just click when you realize that you are best friends and you find yourself wanting to spend more and more time together. Sometimes it seems it should fit together in that foolish fairtale order, right? I suppose then it would also be foolish to believe in love songs and romantic movies, wouldn't it? And it most definitely would be foolish to get a slight boost of hope we we see or hear these things. So is it foolish then to believe in hope? Foolish to believe in some kind of fate? Foolish to believe that what seems impossible, isn't? That seems foolish in and of itself at moments to believe that those can't be true...but if it is true, then it must be foolish to believe in any love at all, which I know isn't true. So maybe because I am young, or maybe because I can't help getting that bubbly feeling inside when I hear a love song or watch a romantic movie, or maybe for the sake of believing in the impossible, I'll stay foolish for just a bit longer <3

Just some inspiration and thought...for I have heard all the stories out there.

Introduction

Basically this blog is just about Life & A Bunch of Other Nonsense...simple enough right? I was interested in creating a blog to write out things that I come across in my life, and things that I think about. Because really, what good are your thoughts if you never share them with anyone? A question I have long since pondered. Anyways, I am interested to see where this takes me, if anywhere. I hope to help bring a new way of thinking, and just to cast things in a different light for readers if I may.

I'm going to give this blogging thing a shot and I would be glad to hear from anyone...just post some comments below and let me know what you want me to talk about if theres something specific, ask questions, give me your feedback, basically anything you'd like.

I hope you have a great day...and I'll see you around on the blog. : )